lexeleven

sorry I don't update a lot lately, not really been doing much modelling, too much other work (my 'other life' ha)

check these out...

( unless this melts your monitor.. )

real entry soon...

I'm broke and need some money to buy xmas presents! Take paypal, bank transfer, or cheque.

- Jane Doe Latex Dress
- Latex Stockings
-Steel-boned Corsets
-TUK platforms
-Bodyline Lolita Dress


Trade for:
MAC pigment or minerlize eyeshadow
Latex
corsets - 26'' or smaller
Fetish heels - size 8
Medical items
Bioshock
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Jane Doe Latex dress. I bought this second hand, it was made to someone else's measurements. I'd say it's a 10/12, not too short to wear out! Would fit someone with boobs bigger than 34C as it's a little big on me in the chest area. Looks fab with an underbust. Retails for £85. I'm looking for £50.




Black latex mini-dress, size 10-12 and short! Not great quality but looks good on. £10


Medical corset 30'', fully steel boned overbust, by 'I love Pink Jelly', one off design. Bought second hand but doesn't fit me :(
Looking for £20


TUK pirate platforms. Size 8, a little bit of scuffing on the soles but generally fine. Worn them quite a bit, retail for £35, looking for £20.


Irregular choice heart toe size 8, a little scuffed but otherwise good condition, £20


2-piece Bodyline EGL dress. Size 10-12, a little bit of fake blood on the skirt (not very obvious, I'm gonna give it another wash through), frilly white petticoat skirt. Got this in Harajuku, worn it a couple of times but doesn't really suit me. Retails for about £65, looking for £30 for the two together.


Black latex stockings from Elena's Latex. Good quality thick latex, won't rip easily. Tried on once, in perfect condition. Moulded feet with strengthened soles, and tailored legs with seam down the back. Size 'L', I'd say they are about a size 12 for tall people! They are a bit long for me.
Retails for about £35, I'm looking for £20.

I've been blogging on DA recently:

I just posted this casting on Net-Model:
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All the beautiful colours outside are inspiring me! I'd like to do some images involving nudity and autumn leaf colours. Perhaps we can do something a bit more interesting than 'nude with leaves covering bits'? I'm very pale with bright auburn hair so should compliment quite well.

Ideally I'd like to work with someone within the next month. I tend to be available thursdays and weekends. I could potentially do evenings or tuesday afternoon but if shooting outside we'd miss the light. Potentially we could shoot with leaves inside if there isn't a location available. I don't have my own location so open to ideas!

Ideally I'd like to work somewhere within two hours train journey of Bristol to save on travelling time and money (unless you are willing to cover my expenses and/or put me up). I would preferably like to work with someone who has experience in shooting art nude who can give me some pointers in terms of posing and help me create a really strong image.

Happy to work TF, part-paid or profit share.


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I'm finding more and more that I'm enjoying my TF shoots the best. I like the relaxed atmosphere and getting to try out ideas. Unfortunately the money I end up spending on travel, outfits, props etc necessitates paid work. But paid work always seems to involve an element of clock-watching, pushing to get as much modelling out of the money and the occasional 'I don't think this will make a great shot but as you're paying me I don't want to piss you off'. Sigh. There are exceptions, I have had very good and creative paid shoots, but many of them were too commercially-focused to leave room to play things through. Though there is the worry that if I offer myself for TF work, people will think they can get me without paying so I'll get no paid work at all...argh.

I'm hoping to get a really strong art nude photographer, as opposed to the more fetish and alt focused photographers that I usually work with. Someone like Scott Chappell or Mick Wag. I am sometimes intimidated about approaching art nude photographers as I know I'm not the typical 'art nude model' with my curves and tattoos and also I'm still working on developing my posing so don't like to advertise myself as doing art nude professionally.

The leaves are out NOW and so very beautiful. I had a little break from modelling for a week or so, and I don't have much planned for the next month. I'm having to put a lot of time and thought into my other work so thought I'd try and prioritise modelling a bit. I am still trying to cram in lots of driving lessons and catching up with friends I've not seen in ages.
Also I've put on a bit of weight recently and haven't felt 100% comfortable in my body and posing. It's harder to pose in a flattering manner with more extra flesh! However, some of the weight has gone on my boobs. As someone who has dated women, I quite like breasts even if they are attached to me rather than another person. So this month I thought I'd cool it a little bit and get in the gym, get back to kick boxing (I was working out yeserday and oooww my legs ache today!).

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I survived halloween. A few days before I had absolutely no plans, yet someone how I went out and hit it pretty hard on friday and saturday night. On friday I was a steam-punk pirate in corset, stripy sleeves, goggles and boots. My ribs still ache a bit but I had a very smooth waist line (oh the things we do). Went to the Bristol Rock-Soc halloween party, which I'd been roped into DJing at. No one liked my music much (too obscure, not metal enough, blah blah) and there was a worrying number of people there born in the 90s, but I met a lot of nice friendly people, drank a lot and flirted outrageously. I split my someone's lip moving in to kiss him and ended up head-butting him. Oops.

Last night I went to a big local gay club. Gays do halloween very well. I dressed as a marshmallow in big puffy lolita skirt and a candyfloss pink wig. Everyone seemed to think I was adorable. I kissed a girl dressed as a greek goddess who told me my costume was shit and asked me what star-sign I was. What a load of bollocks. She was pretty though, and anyone can make a cheesey compliment but it takes a bit more to insult someone you've just met!

Since posting my halloween casting I've been slightly flooded with responses. I don't know if it's the 'I'm getting naked for freeee' thing or the fact that I've picked a very 'normal' and not particularly 'out there' idea. I've been making a little spreadsheet so I can narrow people down on some kind of arbitrary basis. I'm having to pick on things like 'lives more than 2 hours away' and 'won't pay my travel' just to rule some people out. I don't want 5 shoots of the same thing! One of the art nude photographers I had previously mentioned contacted me which I'm pretty thrilled about. His work is very impressive and I know we'll create something amazing.

In other news:
YoYo Burger and Coffee Beach - two new places I discovered this week that stay open late and have provided good quality cheap food for nightime munchies that isn't a greasy kebab.

Lady Gaga - the legend. Just got my tickets for cardiff

My new latex catsuit is finished! Should be in the post soon

Bioshock - possibly the most visually stunning game ever?

Does It Offend You Yeah? - gig this week was sweaty, manic and fucking fantastic

Student Halls Brunch - I visited a friend in his halls on saturday morning. For 3 pounds I got chips, beans, lasagne, salad, tea and fruit. It made em feel a bit more human after the night before.


by O'Malley

I'm back from the bunker and all my travels. The group shoot was fun, but rather manic. The 45 minute time-slots with each photographer seemed to go very quickly, there were people there I really wanted to chat to and it was all a bit of a rush. So I worked with 5 photographers and a bunch of different models, but it doesn't feel like I really 'worked' with them. I'll post a few photos when I get them, but from what I've seen so far they're mostly fun shots rather than something I'd stick in my portfolio.

Went to stay over in Oxfordshire to shoot with Nick Owen again this week. It was pretty wet though so I didn't run around naked in the forest, that will have to wait for another time I guess!
I'm thinking of cutting back a bit on my modelling for the next couple of months. Not quitting, but I want to take some time to focus on some of my other career interests and get into shape. The irregular routine and all the travelling has been playing havok with me a bit!

Following my cruel explusion from flickr, I've joined DeviantArt. Still getting my head around it. Should probably check the T&Cs so I don't get banned from this one too.... I really just need somewhere to host and store images, but the attention-whore in me loves all the commenting nonsense. And searching around for inspiration.
Who else is on there? I've been looking around and found some really fantastic stuff, so could be a new thing to swallow my time. I'm here , go add me.

Got my mermaid shots yesterday. I love them:




( better ones below the cut, with added boobs )

wrote this entry a couple of days ago as there was no internet on the train. Am currently back from the bunker shoot, tired out, and annoyed that flickr seem to have deleted my account.

I'm sat on the train back from Nottingham. My hair is full of sand and I think I've got wind-burn. I spent the morning shooting on a beach in Lincoln with Morbidly Inclined. We were doing a mermaid shoot complete with metallic black lycra/spandex zentai. It was a strange looking outfit, which they've let me keep (wonder where I'll wear it...) but I was surprised by how good it looked on camera, it almost looks latex-like. And it's much easier to change into! I enjoyed working with them, and I got to meet their pet skunk (very cute and didn't smell).

 

It's been a busy couple of weeks. I spent a few days staying in Cambridge, which has quickly entered my list of 'places I wouldn't mind moving to'. The city has a fairy-tale quality to it, all pointy old red-brick buildings, turrets and towers. We didn't go punting (was a bit nippy) but did some good catching up with friends, baked cup-cakes and went to see some very funny sketch comedy.

 

Shot with Rod and Alex (Boykitten) for their Kink Couture book. Not that I wore any couture, I just ran around naked. We met up on the first day and tried out some shots involving a pixie-ish dagger they'd borrowed. It wasn't quite what I'd had in mind for my knife shoot, it was pretty but a bit too 'fantasy' style, more theatrical than functional. The next day Rod and Alex went to (un-named department store) and got £700's worth of Japanese Gould knives for us to use for the shoot. They were beautiful things, really rather massive and very shiny. Just the thing. They had the fun job of packaging them up afterwards to return to the shop the next day! We strung the knives up by rope in a row and I was lying below them, almost touching. It was kind of exhilerating though I couldn't help but think about how a loose rope could lead to one of the blades puncturing straight through my chest. Luckily they know what they're doing! I've seen some of the unedited pictures and they're really rather good, very striking. They're not quite 'knifeparty', I think that will need more than one model, but it's great to see your ideas take life. They're going to be really gorgeous, can't wait to see them.

 

Popped over to Norwich for a couple of days. Shot again with Frank of Limited Audience and also shot with Bondage Chronicles. It was my first time doing rainwear fetish (yes, macs and wellies), which is apparently their most popular website. First time for everything! I got to wear some massive waders, looked rather like a fisherman. They had such a lovely house, a massive gothic farm-house with purple walls, flowing black curtains and a giant fluffy dog who seemed more like a polar bear.

 

Bunker shoot tomorrow. It feels like I'm spending all my time on the train lately! Now I have my little netbook I atleast have some things to amuse me while I travel. Watched Mysterious Skin recently and now have more than a little bit of a crush on Joseph Gordon Levitt. He grew up a lot since Third Rock from the Sun! Sigh... Read Claudio Sanchez's new comic, Kill Audio (kl-audio anyone?), which is quite bizarre. Characters include a coked up chicken pimp, a pillow and a two-headed goth demoness. It's kinda like a twisted wizard of Oz. I'm getting back into my comics I think. I was in Forbidden Planet the other day and felt quite nostalgic.

Photo Miss Amelia Aventine took of me in Cambridge...


 

I'm in Cambridge! it's a bit cold, but nice. Shooting with Rod and Alex later, which should be fun. Taking advantage of internets here (my home one is buggered) to try and find some reference pictures. So far not so lucky. My idea involves an erotic/fetishistic image involvi8ng knives (though not actual cutting), contrasts of flesh and shiny metal, textures. The song Knifeparty by deftones, something dark and sensual. All I seem to be able to find is emo camshots of people holding knives by their faces, people holding knives near cocks and lindsay lohan. Perhaps there just aren't many knifeplay images. I hope we can do this well....

In Wetherspoons (classy!) stealing their internets. I appear to be on PunkGrl as a 'hopeful' atm, so I can be judging by the masses. I can't remember when I sent off an application, must have been ages ago as the photos are quite old, but there you go. The link is here, if you're a member give me a vote!

Graeme and I found this strange metal spoon-like thing in Tesco. We couldn't quite work out what to do with it...but had to do something! This will be on my advert for my bdsm cleaning service...

About a month and a half ago I spent a weekend with Graeme and Nikki shooting some ideas we had and some clothes for Nikki's shop. Here are some of the results:ok flickr doesn't like me so I can only post 2 more atm, wait for another post soon with more...


 

Still very limited internet. I am sat in a cafe that sells welsh cakes, which are a bit like scones that have been squashed....mmm
Having no internet is making me use my time a bit more productively, I wrote some letters this week, did some work and started watching Kamikaze Girls, which I've been meaning to watch in a while. It's quite slapstick humour, like a lot of asian comedies I've seen, but silly fun. I just like the fashion, all sweet lolita. I'd like to dress in Baby the Stars Shine Bright, but it makes me look like an over-grown child, too many frills! I like to wear pieces like the skirts and the cardigans with other clothes. I ordered myself a pair of rocking horse shoes the other day. Not Vivienne Westwood originals, but pretty enough for my budget.

Me in new Freyagushi corset, for Nikita Sablier. Not up on the site yet but super cute! I've got my photos from thisset, will post soon as they're awesome.

Got invited to be a fetish cheerleader for the fetish weekender but I had to go to the Lake District instead :( which was lovely, but why does everything have to be on the same day? Must sort out an outfit for the Bizarre Ball. And I'm running late....

Bought new on here, worn a few times for photoshoots, still in new condition. Black with purple stars and trim.
Fit a size 10-12, probably best on someone bigger than a 34C as it is a little loose on the side of my boobs!
Looks fantastic on. Retails for £85, so £65?

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I think I spoke too soon! Today I received an email from DD 'All sets need to be full nude at bare minimum. The first set we will accept full nude with implied "pink" shots, after the first set all future sets must show "pink".'
If they want to sell that kind of work I don't see why they're so euphemistic. 'Pink' apparently means labia, but not necessarily spread leg. Though unless you have rather large lady-lips, there's not gonna be a lot on show unless you open your legs. Ah well, it's their site and they've got to make money and all, but I think it's at the cost of good taste and photography. But that's my opinion and I know not everyone agrees with me. And just like that, my alt-porn career melted....


I'm the pale gingery one in the middle. On the floor to the left is HollyD ('the punkrock pornstar' as she's usually known, with some awesome batman tattoos) and Celestine Stardust, to my left is St Pierre, Izzy Biz and Hush, on my right is Secret, Profound Torture and Thorn.
( a couple more, all SFW )
So I've got four alt pin-up style photo sets with no labia in...anyone know a site that will buy em?

Back to Bristol tomorrow, and back to normal life. Hanging out (and possibly shooting) with Dolly and Karina on wednesday which should be fun. Then on thursday boy and I are off to Cumbria to visit his family and do outdoorsey things. Will probably be very wet and muddy, I am a true city girl and probably don't have any appropriate clothing to take and will be mocked for this.

Last few days in la-la-landin. I'm quite looking forward to getting back to bristol and a bit of normal life. Had quite a busy week of catching up with old friends and family and a few shoots too. I shot with Harper for his bondage site, which was fun but pretty hard work. I really must take some food along with me on these long shoots! Much tying up. though it was the first suspension shoot I'd ever done which didn't leave marks, so he must be pretty good! I met up with a friend of mine who is pro-domming and helped her out on one of her sessions. Well, I say 'helped out', I mostly just sat and watched and laughed. I don't have any intentions of going into the business myself, but I was curious. The dungeon had these horrible walls painted to look like they were made of stone, it looked like a really ugly bit of set for a school play.

Also went over to Southend to shoot with J'accuse for Dangerous Dolls. I met up with a bunch of them yesterday to do some promo at the London Tattoo Con. Basically we ran around in logo'd vests assaulting people with stickers and posing for photo-opportunities. I've got a few sets up on the site, have yet to fully make my mind up about it. I like the community aspect of it, and getting some control over the content of my photo sets and being able to organise them myself, doing it on my own terms to a certain extent. I used to be a member of Suicide Girls (not a model, just viewing public!) and I liked the style of their sets, sexy but also with a lot of character. I remember some great ones with themes, great outfits, locations and story-lines, they were really creative around a theme of alt-erotica, and there were girls of all different shapes, sizes and looks. I thought about modelling for them but then read-up on all the hoo-har about the lawsuits and binding contacts and thought better of it. But I've still been attracted to the idea of doing alt-pin-up/alt glamour, whatever you call it. Some people would call it porn, I guess that's a matter of opinion, people differ so much in what they consider to be explicit and obscene. The kind of work I like and am interested in doing is well-shot nudes that are sexy without being too graphic and 'in-your-face'. I'm not a fan of open leg shots,  I just don't think they're attractive. When it's a picture of a girl with her legs spread, that becomes the focus of the picture. Call me a prude, but I like something a bit more subtle!

I was curious about the actually definition so I consulted wikipedia - Pornography or porn is the depiction of explicit sexual subject matter for the purposes of sexual excitement. That's a difficult definition as people will make their own minds up about what is explicit. Personally I'd judge something as explicit if I felt like if I was going to show it to someone I'd probably warn them that it was 'a bit rude' first! The kind of thing that'd be too hardcore to stick in a standard men's magazine. So I'd put open-leg and other close up genital shots, insertions and other sex acts in that category. Then again, I do a lot of modelling for pay-sites, usually fetish-based. This work isn't what I'd call explicit but I guess you'd say it is 'for the purposes of sexual excitement', people aren't paying just for pretty pictures! But people get excited over all kinds of things, one man's porn is another's M&S lingerie catalogue. But is a picture porn if it's intention is to be arousing? I guess a lot of people would say it was, in that case even clothed glamour work like bikini shots would probably fit in that category.

People often seem to use the term 'pornographic' when they're describing something which they feel has no artistic merit, just sexual content. Again another matter of opinion. I've seen quite graphic images that I thought were well shot and attractive despite the sexual content, which I'd class as erotica. I guess erotica is just a word for 'high quality/arty porn' .I wouldn't consider any of my work particularly pornographic, it's never very explicit though often provocative. I'd say some had more artistic merit than others though! As much as I'm enjoying working with DD, I'm noticing that the content people are uploading seems to be getting progressively more hardcore. The site has no restrictions on the content (as long as there is some full nudity), so people are uploading photosets involving dildos, blow-jobs, masturbation etc. A lot of it is 'diy' sets, so done on a timer by models themselves, and low-quality videos, probably shot on a web-cam. I guess each to their own, but it's not the kind of content I like. The site also features a 'webcam' section where people can pay to see the models 'live'. Some of other models don't mind this as it's quite a quick and easy way to make money but I'm not keen. It's not really modelling, just stripping off and playing with yourself on a bad-quality camera! I guess I'm worried that the site are gonna push for more and more content like this. If they do I'd probably leave, I have no intention of being an 'adult performer' or an amateur porn-star.

The term 'porn' is usually used as an insult about an image, it's like saying 'that image has nothing to merit itself photographically, it is just sexually explicit', so I feel reserved about referring to my modelling work as 'porn' as it seems to say 'I'm not interested in the aesthetics of the image, I'm just making some cheap fap-fodder'. But I guess by many people's standards it is, or not far from. I guess I toe the line, but I like to think of my work as soft-core erotica at the very most.

I think I've done enough ranting now! And I doubt anyone bothered to read all of that.
I shot in a great location a little while ago, an abandoned military base. Some of the photos are below the cut, as there's quite a lot of them. Some nakedness is involved and image heavy!
( Destruction and Decay - NSFW )

two shoots cancelled in two days ARGH...my 'very packed week' is getting progressively more empty and boring, I want to go back to Bristol! But alas I do need to stay here til the beginning of next week. Have Antichrist and tattoo con at the weekend. Have been browsing pretty latex that I can't afford, Westward Bound have such a wonderful range of colours...

shana tova everyone! :) I'm back in london for the first time in ages and ages. Gonna be here for a little over a week, catch up with friends and family, do some of the writing I've been putting off, go to Antichrist and tattoo con and do a few shoots as well. I had a pretty tiring week, running around an abandonned military base with steve, shooting for Mark Varley's documentary with Kali on tuesday and then up to darlington to shoot for petandponygirls again. They had some nice new latex :)

I have a bit of a backlog of photos to post on here, below are a few from the brighton group shoot by KESi. I was a bit grumpy with him because I was worried about ripping my latex, it was getting really dirty and I wasn't convinced it would work on a farm. But he proved me wrong, the pictures look awesome. He gave me some really good direction for poses, coming up with his own little stories about what was going on in each picture....what do you think?


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there should be some more to come, though I really love these ones. Not sure which I'll stick in my port yet....
nap time now I think!

still recovering from last night...and it's time to get my cds sorted for Redeemer tonight....oof.
got my lip pierced yesterday, it looks fit.

a couple of shots from Geetee :D

so who's going to the Antichrist medical special?

Peccatus have a sale on. Will someone please buy me this bolero?

I'm downloading the 'new' manics album. Richy Edwards, the essential tragic idol. Cracked up star. These people fascinate us. In twenty years time will teenagers wear t-shirts of Amy Whinehouse or Britney when she shaved her head and ended up on hospital?

Yesterday was probably one of the most intense photoshoots I've ever done. And it wasn't just because I climbed a large tree naked. And then had to clamber on to a branch, massive injury and/or death felt alarmingly close. The tree was so gnarled and old, I wonder how old it was. 100 years, maybe more? And there I was, in my juvenile skin, barely born, arms up against the trunk.

I went to Charlbury to shoot with Nick Owen. The kind of ladies Nick shoots with are statuesque, with long lean legs, pert breast and olive skin. Gorgeous thin art nude models. Dancers and gymnasts who do not have tattoos and a little pot-belly like me. But he wanted to work with me, we had chatted online and on the phone, so along I went. Nick makes no secret about the fact that he is grieving for his wife who died recently, so I don't think he'd mind me mentioning it here.

He told me he wanted to do a pony-girl shoot, nudes with a bridle etc. I like playing ponies so was interested in this, and his art nude work outdoors is absolutely gorgeous. He had researched our locations really well, they were beautiful and completely isolated places in the woods. Dappled light , winding tree branches, greenery. We did some shots of me tied to trees and with a harness and bridle on, doing animalistic poses and more bondage damsel style. Later on he told me that he had so much left over from his wife and he was trying to take photos of it, to capture the objects and her life. And they liked a bit of b & d and pony-play. I can't say I wasn't a little intimidated, to be creating an image about something so personal and intimate, wearing his late wife's harness, that old erotic energy. But also very honoured, that he had chosen me to help create that image that was so special to him. We talked, he cried, and then I cried. I can be very emotional and being around unhappy people gets to me a lot!

We did some art nude shots and we spent a while talking about poses, he gave me some really good pointers and I'm very happy with what I've seen so far. The images look natural, they really look like me, but they're also very beautiful.

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I was supposed to get a train after 4 hours but ended up staying about 8, he drove me home in the end as it had got so late. I've never worked with a photographer who was also a psychotherapist but somehow I ended up spilling out my life story! I felt pretty exhausted, physically (some very awkward poses were held for long periods of time and I was covered in bashes and scratches from trees, nettles, thorns, ropes etc) and more emotionally. This is probably the most personal entry I've written on here, I usually save that for me friends-only personal journal. and just post pics and faff about modelling on here.

I'm very tired. Spent all of today doing bondage as well. Richy's lent me some fantastic outfits while he goes away, anyone for straightjacket fun? I've now got even more bruises. Lucky photographer tomorrow....he doesn't like to use photoshop! Sleepy sleepy worn out girlie.

Yes, I admit it, I am porn. But I'm fucking good porn.

Current modelling-related ailments:
back - sunburn - art nude on straw bales minus enough suncream
knees - bruised - climbing trees nakes
arms - bruised - rope marks
legs - scratches - wandering around through nettles to find shooting spot
back - ache - holding awkward poses for long periods of time
eyes - bags - not enough sleep!

Sean posted this one on fetlife today, I'd completely forgotten about it...


that's my bum ^^

I am thinking up ideas for my photoshoot with Marc Blackie. I want to do something based on one of my favourite songs, Cripple and the starfish by Antony and the Johnsons. It's quite a dark and unsettling song with some very powerful imagery in it. It brings to mind pictures of masochisms, medical braces, bruises and doped-up dazes. I've been looking around to see how other people have interpreted it.


The one on the end is probably my favourite of the ones I've seen so far. I think I shall have a look into how to do bruises without it just looking like I have grey eye-shadow on my face.